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I guess my ranting and raving paid off...as soon as I clicked post they redirected my call to a HUMAN BEING!!! L>O>L

My claim has been processed and my payment should be in the bank on Thursday, it's going to be short though because I decided to be honest and put in the hours that I worked last week. Grrr. Stupid conscience. L>O>L

Well I have laundry to switch and three messy rooms to clean up, as well as some food shopping to do for dinner tonight. Can't wait to see my friends, hopefully a few of them can make it. L>O>L

Ok, gotta go now...

*Toodle-Loo*
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Why does the unemployment site for filing my bi-weekly claim have to be down? WTF!!!

After calling 3 different numbers and getting busy signals for like 12 million times I finally connect to one of them, press a few numbers and then they re-direct me to one of the OTHER BUSY NUMBERS!!! So I call, and call and call and then FINALLY get through and start filing but since I can't enter WHO I've worked for OVER THE PHONE I now have to call the OTHER number I got disconnected from about an hour ago. They were busy as well for the first 12 million times AGAIN and now I'm on hold AGAIN! I think they said the wait time is less than 15 min, it's already been like 15. WTF! I need to get to cleaning! My phone was dieing so I'm stuck to the wall until it's either fully charged or I can talk with someone and finish filing my claim. I have a feeling the phone will charge first. L>O>L

Ok, sorry for my ranting and raving. I'll update later after my baked ziti dinner!!! You know you wanna come over...All are welcome!!!

*Toodle-Loo*

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Colbie Caillat "Realize"

Take time to realize,
That your warmth is. Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

[Chorus:]
If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by

But I can't spell it out for you,
No its never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you.


[Chorus:]
If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other but.

It's not the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it to.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.


[Chorus:]
If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
Just realize what I just realized


If you just realize what I just realized

Oh

Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now

Realize
Realize
Realize

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I heard this song on pandora and I loved it so I wanted to post the lyrics...

"Where Have You Been" Reel Big Fish

You called me up last night in tears and said you missed me after all these years
Well I’ve been waiting here so long, I’ve gotten over it since you've been gone
You called me late last night again and said you're finished with your new boyfriend
Asked if you could come back home- so sorry that you left me all alone

You say you love me, love me again but if you love me- where have you been?
You say you need me more than anyone else well go to hell, where have you been?
You showed up at my door today and said my friend why do you push me away
Your life with him was just so dull but what we had was something wonderful

You say you love me, you love me again but if you love me- where have you been?
You say you need me more than anyone else well go to hell- where have you been?
No way! You wish! I don't need this! What makes you think I’d ever want you again?
Yeah right! As if! I don't need this What makes you think I'd ever want you again?

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The only reason why I am up right now is because my grandfather wants me to fix his ceiling and since I"m not working right now any side work I can get is great. He has cracks in his ceiling and he wants me to tape it and then spackle it. Sounds easy enough, but I just hope he doesn't expect it to be this beautiful finished project when I'm done though because we don't learn tape and spackling at school or work so I'm just gonna wing it and hope it comes out ok.

Home Depot was closed last night when Julie and I were gonna go, so now I gotta go this morning. Julie might come with me but she's gotta be here in the next 5 min or I gotta get going. I gotta buy the tape for it. I already have the spackle so hopefully the tape shouldn't be too expensive.

Well I'll update about my "side job" later and about my fun-filled weekend as well.

*Toodle-Loo*

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I can't believe I haven't written in this thing for almost 2 months now. Every time I update I say to myself, I'm gonna write in here more and then it feels like only a week goes by before I even posted and it winds up being a month or two.

Well Nicole finally got her license, which I'm sure most of you know already but I figured I'd write it. We did get into a bit of an argument a few weekends ago and she secretly drove here with a bunch of roses while I was at the Cartel concert with my cousin Ashley and surprised me when I came home. It definitely made me feel a little bit more secure with our "relationship" or whatever you want to call "it". L>O>L I mean I still have my doubts here and there but I'm just going with the flow for now because I'm crazy about her. Just a little.

The Burlington Coat Factory job finished up about a month ago but I did work a few days here and there at the Convention Center for the last four weeks. I got laid off on Halloween. Same as last year, which is VERY unsettling since last year I was laid off for 6 months on the same day. Thanks God I was able to put away a few dollars in my savings just in case if I am off for just as long. I have a picket line tomorrow on 2nd & Arch at 6:45am. I was gonna take the el down but since SEPTA is on strike can't do that. If I was speaking with my father I'm sure I would have some type of explanation as to why they are on strike but since I'm not, and probably won't be for a while I'll just leave it at that.

As for another part of my dysfunctional family my brother got arrested at the beginning of October.I'd rather not talk about the whole situation but just know it's not drug related. We bailed him out of PA jail only for him to get arrested 4 days later in NJ and now he is in the Camden County Correctional Facility. My mom and his friend Joe and I went to go visit him on Tuesday. I actually filled up a little. It's kinda hard seeing your brother in that orange jump suit. I just hope this experience finally wakes his ass up and realizes how bad his life is going to be if he continues on this path. We're supposed to go back this Tuesday as well. I just hope he gets out soon, this whole thing is killing my mother. It's all she talks about these days.

I'm super pissed about the Phillies loss. I really think that we were cheated this year. The umps calls were WAY off and it just really sucks that they're mistakes were at crucial make up moments for us, but whatever, we'll get em' next year I hope. I guess I can go back to rooting for the Eagles even though I am sickened that Vick is on their team but I absolutely LOVE Westbrook and I will continue to root for him as long as he is on the team.

What I'm super excited about though are the shows on ABC. I'm already in love with Greys Anatomy and Private Practice but Flash Forward and V are incredible. Anyone else agree?? Oh and I really like Accidentally on Purpose with Jenna Elfman and John Foster. It is super cute and John Foster is super HOT. L>O>L

Well I'm going to continue with my dvred shows and finish up with my laundry. I have to get up at 5:30. STUPID PICKET LINE...I HATE THEM! It better get me job because my ankle is still fucked up and I am sick as well and don't feel like standing around doing NOTHING for 8 hours. Can I tell you all the aches and pains you feel after doing that all day. NOT FUN!!!

Anyways, goodnight everyone.

*Toodle-Loo*

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Where to start, where to start...

Well as far as the job thing goes, I worked that one day before Nicole went home, 2 days the following week and then 3 days this past week, and then possibly after the holiday we should be back Tuesday-Friday. The pay at this particular job is probably the best I'm going to see EVER in my entire career. For some reason they are paying us time and a half as our hourly rate instead of just the 10% night differential. That means we are making $56 an hour. Can you believe that! My first pay check for our 8 hour day (that we only worked like 4 hours of) was OVER $300. I used to make that in 40 hours working at Cardinal Health 3 years ago. And it's not even really that hard. Granted I've been sick since Monday night from all the YEARS of dust coming off the things that we are taking down and moving around and stuff but it's totally worth it!

The only thing that's NOT worth the money is the fact that I had to stay home for my annual vacation to Maryland for Labor Day weekend. I've been having these coughing fits in the middle of the night and I didn't want to keep everyone in the cabin awake from it so I decided not to sleep over. However Nicole and I did go there yesterday to watch the "Farewell Fling" concert that Shane's uncle Glenn plays with his band every year. I had to see the stage we built in action. L>O>L He even thanked us in the middle of the concert, almost as I was about to blow my nose. That would have been FABULOUS! L>O>L We had a great time and I was SUPER sad to leave everyone. I told Shane's sisters that next year I am coming down with them Thursday morning next year and staying with them til Tuesday.

I guess the one good thing about not going is that I get to spend some time with Nicole for the days off that I have. That's RIGHT PEOPLE...She's BACKKKKK!!! L>O>L Despite being sick I picked her up on Thursday night since we randomly got Thursday and Friday off from work. She's only here for like 2 1/2 weeks though this time. She's not able to take her driver's test until October 2nd so instead of just staying home and fighting with her mom, and because she missed me SOOOOOOOOO much that she wanted to come back and stay again. How could I say no, the girl practically BEGGED ME! L>O>L J/K. I love you woman!!! :)

Anyways...so now that I'm feeling slightly better and I'm not GLUED to a box of tissues I've decided to make pot roast for tonight's dinner. I LOVE POT ROAST!!! I am SO a meat n potatoes kinda girl. It smells AMAZING in my house and the potatoes and carrots haven't even been added yet. I've got 1:35 for that. And when Carrie gets home from work I'm gonna try to get her to help me make a pasta salad for tomorrow night's side dish with the burgers I'm going to make. I love having people in the house that I can cook for. I don't know what I'm going to do when Shane and David do eventually move out. I know I can cook for myself and like freeze the left overs but I like having people here to enjoy it with me, since I'm such a good cook and all. ;)

Oh yea I forgot to mention...(BEEP...BEEP...BEEP, Gotta add the potatoes & carrots. BRB) OK back, well being the CRAZY person that I am, when Carrie asked me if she could crash at my house for the next month until she moves to Croydon I said yes. So now it's a full house with her, Nicole, myself, Shane, David, my puppy Dublin and David's puppy Charlie. FUN TIMES! Should be an interesting month ahead of us.

Also, since I hardly ever treat my mom to things randomly, since this weeks paycheck should be well over $900 I saw that the Beach Boys were playing at the Tropicana in Atlantic City on Black Friday so I order us 2 tickets to go see it. I wanted to surprise her, but I wasn't sure if she was gonna want to go or not so I had to ask. However I am going to surprise her with WHERE the seats are. I got like Row 5 CENTER, on like the right side center, but in the center section. She is going to be so happy when we finally get there.

This means that this year I will have gone to a total of 8 concerts. I saw Eve 6 with Katie in April, All Time Low with Tara in June, Vans Warped Tour with Ashley in July, Tori Amos twice in August with Nicole, Blink 182 in August with Ashley, I'm gonna see Cartel with Ashley in October and then the Beach Boys with my mom in November. I think that is the most I have gone to ever in one year. What I should try to figure out is all the people I have seen and how many concerts I have gone to. By now it's probably well over 50 concerts and probably over a 100 bands or people.

Tonight is definitely a laid back day, for the rest of it that is. Nicole is showering now and then we are going to play Lego Batman for the rest of the night I believe and then eat the pot roast around 7:30ish. We are like 91% done Batman, I want to see what happens when we beat the entire thing. I just hope we don't argue too much while playing though, things can get pretty intense, can't they woman. L>O>L

Alright, well I've typed enough for one day. I hope you guys are having an amazing & healthy weekend unlike me, L>O>L

*Toodle-Loo*

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I can't believe it's been over a month since I have written in this thing. With Nicole being here most of the summer I've been busy spending time with her and up until the 5th I was working too. Well as of last night Nicole is back in New York. These past 2 months FLEW BY! It definitely opened my eyes to a lot of things by her staying here. It had it's ups and downs but overall it was a really fun experience and it was really hard for me to say goodbye last night. I definitely started filling up like 4 times on the car ride there and then I couldn't hold it anymore at her house when we were alone and then again when she walked me to my car. It's really weird being in this house without her. WAY too quiet. And I think Dublin misses her too. L>O>L

I think sometime apart will be good though for a while because we both need to start figuring out what we want in a potential girlfriend and also just fix ourselves as well. I really don't like being alone but after Carrie left I was kinda getting used to it. Not saying I want to be alone forever but sometimes a little quiet time with yourself is always needed.

I learned a lot about Nicole during her trip here and I'm sure she learned a lot about me as well. My feelings for her haven't changed at all, but I do feel like I'm kinda holding back with some affection and my feelings for her. I'm the type of person that needs to be shown love and affection, not necessarily all the time but enough for me to feel like our relationship is going somewhere and we are growing as a couple but I really don't see that happening with her. Granted we aren't together, and I think if we WERE official she would try harder but I'm afraid to commit myself because she may never change and that's not something I am okay with settling with. There are some other personal issues but I'm not going to get into that on here, but they really don't outweigh the affection factor.

I don't know what's going to happen with us. I think both of us should see other people too sometimes. She's only really been in one serious relationship so I think it would be good for her to see what its like out there. Granted I'm risking the fact that I might lose her but then again it might bring us closer together because maybe she'll realize how much of a catch I really am. L>O>L

Anyways...so yea I got laid off. I definitely didn't see it coming. My friend Lisa got laid off at the same time along with a bunch of really good guys too. They said they were gonna call us back but who knows. As for now I got called on Thursday at 4:30 to go downtown THAT NIGHT at 7:00 to the Burlington Coat Factory in The Gallery. We worked from 7pm-11pm and got paid for 8 hours AND they called us back to work there again on Monday at 8pm as well. I also think I'm getting paid journeyman rate too which is like $37.00 an hour plus 10% for night shift which is good. It's nothing steady but it will bring in a little dough for me to pay some bills.

I just really wish that I could get on something really steady and KNOW that I'm going to be with that company for like 5 years or more and just save a SHITLOAD of money. I was able to save like $2,000 on this last concrete job and I thought I was going to be there til like October and I wanted to try and save like $8,000 total but now THAT'S not gonna happen. :(

Well on a positive note there is a slight chance that David (Shane's boyfriend) might be moving in which is going to be a BLAST! And a little bit more rent money coming in as well which is good too.

What else, Hmmm...

Oh I got my school papers. I go back for my 4th and FINAL FUCKING YEAR (L>O>L) on the 15th of September and it's every Tuesday. Not too bad, except for the fact that they also sent us a letter with it saying that we are no longer allowed to wear hoodies anymore. WTF! I freeze my ass off in that school WHILE wearing my hoodie. I am SO PISSED! I also wear it because we have to tuck our COLLARED SHIRTS in as well. I look gay ENOUGH wearing those shirts, let alone TUCKED THE FUCK IN! I am furious about the new rule and I can't wait to get the FUCK OUT OF THERE. At least I go straight from September til March with like a one week break and then I graduate BITCHES! HOLLER! L>O>L I am going to have a HUGE graduation party too and then go to Ireland with my mom. L>O>L That's if she's still taking me as a graduation present and all.

OH! And another thing. My step mom called me today and asked me, ME, if I wanted to come with "the family" to see Ryan graduate @ ASU in December. I almost hit the floor. L>O>L I NEVER get invited to go out there or ANYWHERE for that matter with my dads family. So even though it's going to cost me like OVER $600 for the trip I'm going to Arizona in December. I AM SO EXCITED! The farthest west I have been is Ohio (and we ALL know how I feel about OHIO) L>O>L. It's only from like the 14th to the 19th of December but I can't wait to go.

I also forgot to mention that Shane's Uncle Glenn called me to do kind of a side job with him in Maryland at the campground I go to with Shane's family every year. I was there last weekend helping him extend the stage. It was a long, hot day but it was a lot of fun and I got some money out of it and got to spend time with Shane and his Uncle as well. I'll probably go back there next weekend with my dad's truck to finish putting on some plywood with Sean mot likely. CANNOT WAIT TO GO THERE FOR LABOR DAY WEEKEND!!! L>O>L

Well I've written enough for one night. I'm gonna go play around with my I-Tunes. L>O>L

*Toodle-Loo*

P.S. I'll write about the block party tonight later.

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Rob Thomas "Her Diamonds"

Oh what the hell she said
I just can't win for losing
And she lays back down
Man there's so many times
I don't know what I'm doing
Like I don't know now

By the light of the moon
She rubs her eyes
Says it's funny how the night
Can make you blind
I can just imagine
And I don't know what I'm supposed to do
But if she feels bad then i do too
So I let her be

And she says oh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cause I can't help her now
She's down in it
She tried her best but now she can't win it
Hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down

She sits down and stares into the distance
And it takes all night
And i know i could break her concentration
But it don't feel right

By the light of the moon
She rubs her eyes
Sits down on the bed and starts to cry
And there's something less about her
And I don't know what I'm supposed to do
So I sit down and I cry too
And don't let her see

And she says oh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cause I can't help her now
She's down in it
She tried her best but now she can't win it
Hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down

She shuts out the night
Tries to close her eyes
If she can find daylight
She'll be alright
She'll be alright
Just not tonight

And she says oh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cause I can't help her now
She's down in it
She tried her best but now she can't win it
Hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down

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So Nicole's been here for about 2 weeks now. I'm not going to lie it hasn't been quite heaven on earth (L>O>L) but we are slowly starting to get used to the fact that we will be living together for the next two months or so. We both have to put forth some more effort than we already are if we want this "relationship" to work. I'm hoping by the end of this little visit we will be on more permanent terms but we'll see how that goes. We are just taking it day by day as Nicole says.

I'm still working steady which is great. It's hard and hot as hell on some days but it's actually a lot of fun. They finally hired some more women to work with my crew. Maureen and Denise. They are both older woman and journeymen which is cool to. They are both definitely my inspiration. I'm trying to learn as much as I can from then. Denise was even giving me recipes on Thursday. L>O>L I like Maureen a lot too though because she's really funny and LOVES how I say "Aw" all the time. It's a family habit I swear. She reminds me a lot of Kelly, Katie's younger sister.

Speaking of Katie. I haven't heard from her in like a month, or seen her rather in like 2. I've tried texting her a bunch of times but I get no response. I think she's mad at me because I decided to let Nicole stay here for 2 months. But I think it's better this way. This way we will know if we can live together possibly in the future. Sometimes I feel like she doesn't want anyone else to be happy. I wish the best for her, I really do. She is and always will be one of my best friends. I wonder if I'm still invited to her sister's baby shower? I wish she would call me or text me or write me or SOMETHING! I Miss her. Honestly I do.

Well once again I'm cooking burgers for me and Nicole. Shes getting ready upstairs and I'm gonna shower after dinner. I think we are going to go Shane's sisters house tonight and have some drinks and play pool and stuff. That's IF I can get the dog to go to the bathroom. I have to take her to the vet on Monday she needs her shots mostly but the past couple days she hasn't really been eating and she hasn't been "going" that great either. I hope my puppy gets better soon.

Gotta check on the food.

*Toodle-Loo*

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